forever till forever meets no end

Friday, November 02, 2007 @10:17 PM

ODT this morning, went pretty well. well done to li mei and mel! the skipping was real good. 205 was wonderful as well. came to school in the morning and ran around looking for a cheerleading skirt because cheerleaders had to line the road to school to welcome mrs tan in her convertible (:

waited in the canteen and holding rooms, singing songs with 205 <3

then we went back to class and got back our progress reports. i looked at it and i thought to myself, "my gpa is ok, i met my goal in a way and i made improvement." so all was well at first. after that tried to find miss ong to collect OP cert and then got called by veron about hssrp forms. then got towed off by veron and liting for lunch and watched game plan. then i was on my way home my mood started swinging.

so basically now, it has finally sunk it that my GPA freaking sucks like hell and i should have worked so much harder. maths pulled me down so much, my non-existent history 4.0, and everything just made it even worse then it already is. argh i hate myself.

i hate my gpa and i hate the fact that i didn't try harder to do better.

its so stupid.
i hate falling at the last step
and ending up having to start all over.
first it was gym now it my gpa.
and sometimes we just don't get second chances.
"whats done is done, we just have to move on"
isn't always the easiest of things to do.

argh bloody hell, i hate myself for being such a freaking failure.
i can't even mantain the level of my studies.